Stuck between I’ll never forget and I’ll always remember;
Pining for your whisper and the confession of all your heart can render...

I was going through an old journal and found a half written entry... I could immediately tell after reading the quote with which I started how sad I must have been when I started to write this...

From the movie entitled "Blow" which tells of the adventures of drug smuggler George Jung...

George: "So in the end, was it worth it? Jesus Christ. How irreparably changed my life has become. It's always the last day of summer and I've been left out in the cold with no door to get back in. I'll grant you I've had more than my share of poignant moments. Life passes most people by while they're making grand plans for it. Throughout my lifetime, I've left pieces of my heart here and there. And now, there's almost not enough to stay alive. But I force a smile, knowing that my ambition far exceeded my talent. There are no more white horses or pretty ladies at my door".

as to whether George Jung ever actually said those words... or did screen writer David McKenna embellish and thought that maybe George Jung would have said this... who knows???

regardless, I think about this movie quote quite a lot... I'm pleased that as I get older... I tend to disagree with it more and more...

perhaps I'll expand on my disagreement with George at a later time, I was just amused with myself and the journal entry I found ...

"Come on Sugar, Just Say I Love You"...

Strange Angel

I close my eyes and I fill my head with thoughts I’d hope would flee;
I recant a wasted life, wallow within my strife and pray for softer things to see

I’d barter all shallow fellowship, just to know I had one steadfast friend;
Give up all my erudition to walk with you forever and find peace before my end

Blessings lay on my heart, from the one who loves me the most;
Trying to find the sum of my deserving… lost in love with no fear of ghosts

Every breath from a dream to find This Strange Angel warm and beside me;
A delicate caress with her thumb to my held hand, I feel the answer, to my divine plea

Do not yield to disbelieving in Angels, once you’ve forgiven all that you are;
It just doesn’t seem possible to see the Lord’s worth or for an Angel to have come so far

To stay with you one day longer, always now my eternal reprieve;
Fidelity to Love and my Strange Angel… close to you… I cleave

Solely is my lesson, if in my time, all I learn is this;
Only a little while should we wander, live out loud with guard to your purpose, or it’s your Strange Angel you’ll miss…

"Come on, Sugar just say I Love You"

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