(I made a mess, who doesn’t, I did my best but it wasn’t enough)

I miss everything there is to miss… I miss physically being close to someone I deeply love and care for… I miss passion, kissing, holding onto one another and making love all over the house…I miss your sweet face, I long for your sweeter smile… I miss hearing what you think about everything… I miss watching bad TV with you… I miss a bed made warmer by two people lying closely with one another, I miss looking out the window, and feeling like a kid waiting for Christmas morning to come…with the thought that your arrival was coming soon… I miss the conversations about the day, being there for the good and bad, nothing quite matches the feeling of being over joyed with some random bit of unexpectedness and truly wanting to share that with someone you care for, in hopes that they will share in your joy with you…and on the other end of that spectrum, having someone to fall into and collapse, when inevitably the clouds of the day enshroud you and all you want to do is quit…I miss you being the voice inside my head…that made me want to be a better human being, for all of the world.
I miss walking into the grocery with you, and even if just for a second, the other shoppers thinking that you were mine…I miss hearing you laugh out loud, nothing has ever brought me more joy than the sound of your laughter, your smile added years to my life, as it was the most powerful medicine for my soul I’ve ever known…I miss getting to find out what color your eyes were going to be when next we’d meet… I miss your plastic cup of wine and I miss every square inch of your beautiful body… I miss so very much breathing you in deeply and kissing your neck… I miss my friend like I miss my own heart,

I miss you, for who, and all that you are, and I always will…

I miss being near you in any and all ways possible… I’ll never learn to not miss you…

A distant second, to all my missing, I miss who I was when we were in one another’s lives… my sweet mother has phrased it best to all those I’ve confided in… she told me she had never seen that gentleness in me, and that seeing you, bring that out in me, made her happier for me than she’d ever been… It is with that same gentleness, that I will always love you…

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You run away
You could turn and stay
But you run away from me
I tried to be your brother
You cried and ran for cover
I made a mess, who doesn’t
I did my best but it wasn’t enough
You run away
You could turn and stay
But you run away from me
I’ll give you something you can cry about
One thing you should try it out
Hold a mirror shoulder high
When you’re older look you in the eye
When you’re older look you in the eye
I tried but you tried harder
I lied but you lied smarter
You made me guess who was it
I did my best but it wasn’t enough
You run away
You could turn and stay
But you run away from me
You run away
(I tried to be your brother)
You could turn and stay
(You cried and ran for cover)
But you run away from me
(I made a mess, who doesn’t, I did my best but it wasn’t enough)
But that’s not something to cry about
It’s not something to lie about
You run away
(I tried to be your brother)
You could turn and stay
(You cried and ran for cover)
But you run away from me
(I made a mess, who doesn’t, I did my best but it wasn’t enough)

Barenaked Ladies - You Run Away Lyrics